Mormon Temples "Between Heaven & Earth"

After reading a new friends blog titled "Look to the Temple," it inspired me to ride the bus down to  the Provo Temple. I  knew that I couldn't go in because I was going through a repentance process so I arrived with the idea of walking the beautiful grounds & finding a quiet place to begin reading the Book of Mormon.

The roses smelled so pretty and you could hear the fountains from a distance. It was nice and cool today with a small breeze. So happy to be here, its been a long time (2 yrs). When I got up to the doors, I remembered their was a visitors waiting room just inside the entrance of the doors and to the right. I was so thankful to get to go be inside the Lords House again even if it was only to be in the waiting room. Inside the waiting room was couches and a table with church magazines and a tv with a video playing called "Between Heaven & Earth." I sat there not knowing what to do so I said a prayer to please help me feel the Spirit. I picked up the new Era and on the front cover was an article about Pornography, a subject that is similar to what Im going through (healing from prostitution that I was involved in a long time ago but am still trying to heal from). I thought, Heavenly Father, I am sitting in one of the most sacred places, wanting to read the Book of Mormon and feel the spirit like I use to and Im reading about pornography? is this ok? well, its sitting in the Temple (this article) so it must be ok to read, what is it doing in a church magazine? but as I began to read, the tears really started to flow. Im trying to find the article on www.lds.org in the New Era magazine but cant find it, Im guessing it was in Junes 2013 but I cant find it to post on this blog. Anyways, it was very comforting and let me know that I am not alone and that not everyone will turn their backs on me or judge me. This guy had told his family about his addiction to porn but in the article, I wonder why people didn't trust him? it made me think, I wonder what my friends and family think of me, do they trust me? I sat the magazine down and listened to the video on tv (they have the video on www.youtube.com)

I found a quiet place in the back of the Temple on a bench in the garden and began to read the Book of Mormon. I had a really hard time focusing, there was a girl sitting not to far from me and I wanted to be alone.  I read the 1st page "The Book of Mormon An Account Written by The Hands of Mormon" and what really stood out was the last sentence..."wherefore condemn not the things of God, that ye may be found spotless at the judgement-seat of Christ." I started to cry because I thought how am I going to feel the spirit and gain some answers or a peace in my heart, Im so dirty and I can't even go in the Temple.  The girl sitting next to me got up and walked away. Im sure she was trying to find a quiet place too and being near me wasnt helping. 

Than I went on to read the Introduction and a Latin family came and began taking family pictures. I sat the book down and watched this family. There were children, a few moms, maybe the moms sisters and their old grandmother. One of the children was a lil boy and they were all dressed up in their Sunday clothes, so precious. I could feel my grandma Isabellas spirit and was reminded not to judge a race because of bad things some of them have done to me. 

I remembered the day when I was worthy to enter the Temple, how I got to prepare 2 very close family members names for baptism.  I was baptized, received the Holy Ghost and took out their endowments for them, they get to choose on the other side wether they want to accept the Gospel or not. I wanted to find a special woman to do the Temple work for one of the family members and I could do the other one. After some time, this older lady with long hair in a bun walked in and she looked exactly like my great grandma Isabella and the spirit came over me letting me know that my great grandma would take the other 2 family members by the hand and help them on the other side. My great grandma and these 2 family members are not related by blood, they never knew each other in this life but they all grew up with similar life stories so it seemed like the right thing to do to have her help me that day. She was honored to do the work and I made a new friend but never seen her again.

Mormon Temples Between Heaven & Earth Videos

Im thankful for the Temple