Lindsay's Brownies

5 Cups margarine
10 Cups sugar
3 tsp vanilla
Combine ingredients and then add...
20 eggs, well beaten
add...
5 Cups white flour
3 3/4 Cups cocoa
2 1/2 Tbsp baking powder
5 Cups nuts
2 3/4 lbs per pan of batter

Lindsay's Almost Vegan Bread

*cream in mixer until creamy and light
2lbs margarine
6 Cups honey
* in food processor mix
2 1/2 tubs of tofu (50 oz)
4 plus tsp vanilla
* combine with first mixture & add 18 cups of mashed banana.
* in a separate bowl, combine
20 Cups of whole wheat flour
3/4 Cup baking soda
1/2 Cup baking powder
*add to the above mixture and stir in 8 Cups of walnuts
* place in a greased pan and bake for 55 minutes.

Lindsay's Chocolate Revel Bars (recipe from a coffee shop she worked at in Hawaii)

1 Cup margarine or butter
2 1/2 Cup Flour
2 Cups brown sugar
2 eggs
4 tsp vanilla, divided
1 tsp baking soda
3 Cups quick rolled oats
1 1/2 Cup semi-sweet chocolate pieces
1- 14oz can sweetened condensed milk
1/2 Cup chopped nuts
2 Tbsp butter

Beat 1 cup butter for 30 seconds. Add 1/2 the flour, the brown sugar, eggs, 2 tsp vanilla and the baking soda. Beat until combined. Beat in remaining flour. Stir in oats.

In a sauce pan, combine chocolate chips, milk and 2 Tbsp butter. Cook over low heat until chocolate melts. Remove from heat. Stir in nuts and 2 tsp vanilla

Press 2/3 of the oats mixture into the bottom of an ungreased 15X10X1 inch baking pan. Spread the chocolate over this. Using your fingers. dot remaining oat mixture over the chocolate.

Bake at 350 degrees about 25 minutes or until lightly browned. Chocolate will still look moist. Cool
(Makes about 60 bars)

SIX TRAYS:
3 lb. butter
15 Cup flour
12 Cup brown sugar
12 eggs
3 Tbsp vanilla
2 Tbsp baking soda
18 Cup Oats
20 Cup chocolate chips
5- 7 can sweetened condensed milk
1 Quart nuts
3/4 Cup butter
7 Cup sugar

Lindsay's Branberry Muffins

1 Qt White flour

1 Qt. Wheat

1 Qt Wheat Bran

2 C. Oil

2 C. Apple Juice

2 C. Soy Milk

20 Eggs

1 Tbsp Salt

4 Tbsp Baking Powder

3 Tbsp Cinnamon

8 C. Berries

Bake @ 325-350 for 35 minutes

Why You Went Through Everything... (quote)

What You Think Of Yourself... (quote)

Goals... (quote)

Life... (quote)

Addicts II Athletes

My first time running with the Addicts II Athletes Team, what an awesome group, very inspiring!

My 1st time running ever since my 5 surgeries on each knee. This was the 1/2 mile mark on our 1 mile run, I ended up running & walking 1 1/2 miles tonight. Feels so good! can't wait to run again :)

My friend was so proud of me for choosing to run and not drink alcohol or smoke cigarettes or marijuana that he surprised me with a new pair of running shoes & a Pedometer. Usually I stay in my bedroom and don't go any where but now Im excited to wake up and go walking. 

Channel 5 News filming us 

Family Home Evening @ The BYU Duck Pond

Monday, July 8, 2013- Lindsay called me & asked if I wanted to have Family Home Evening with her & Ky, I thought it was cute cause she's not even Mormon. We ate pizza, garlic toast, salad & root beer floats at the Brick Oven & after went to the BYU Duck Pond. 

My daughter Lindsay & my gbaby Kyden, feeding the ducks

 My gbaby Ky feedin bread to all the duckies

a turtle & some ducks

Kydens newest talent, galloping (his mommy calls it skipping)

he can go really fast too! Haha

"Ephraims Rescue"

watched Ephraims Rescue at the Riverwoods tonight, loved the story! I remember reading the book about the Martin Handcart Co, amazing strength these pioneers had crossing the plains in horrific winter conditions. I would watch it again :)

"Give it to God"

I had such a rough morning, couldn't have found this quote at a better time...

Brittany pics & Mt Shasta

My daughter Brittany (love & miss her so much!) & her boyfriend Sam 

Mount Shasta

Obedience & Rescuing Wayward Children talks in church

Sacrament Meeting was really good today, all the talks were on Obedience & very good. The last talk given by a brother in the ward was the best one, it really touched my heart & made me cry. I had to leave to get my tears under control but one quote given by a woman that I really liked was...
"We're not obedient because we're blind, we're obedient because we can see."

My new friend bought me sandwiches from Kneaders, milk, OJ & chips for me & my grandson today. That really meant alot to me to be able to give my grandson something when he came over to play with grandma today :)

My gbaby & daughter came over & we played at the park, he is the funniest kid! I love my kids so much!

I went to an LDS Fireside tonight at the Stake Center, the speaker was Larry Barkdull- Author of best selling books "Rescuing Wayward Children" and "Pillars of Zion." The topic was The Gospel Within The Gospel," really good Fireside! He talked about his son drinking, driving & getting a DUI, the dad had to bail him out of jail. He went one day to his sons house to help him pack his things and move back home. When he walked into his sons apartment that he shared w/several other guys, there was liquor, drugs & paraphernalia every where & the supposedly friends were all in the back yard drinking. The so called friends didn't lift a finger to help move his son. It got me thinking, not one of my so called street friends who said they had my back never did. No one visited me or bailed me out of jail, they weren't there to fight for me when I got hurt. Anyways, the wrong crowd will always be the wrong crowd!
Brother Barkdull talked about 3 parables in Luke in the Bible, one was "the coin," another was the "Prodigals son" & I forgot the other one. Makes me wanna go through the whole chapter of Luke and read it, loved the stories! I want to read his books too :)

Later, my lil brother picked me up & took me to see World War Z, funny zombie movie! it was meant to be scary I think.

Well, its 1:30am & I need to sleep, good night!

Lehi Rodeo Roundup

"Tough Enough To Wear Pink?"

The cow was collecting donations to support the fight against cancer

his shirt says "Eat More Chikin" LOL

Had a lot of fun tonight with my new friend, loved watching the lil kids ride the bulls, & the adults ridin the bigger bulls. They had dirt bikes perform, flippin in the air, cool to watch!

Keepin it Real

Visiting the Temple helps me think clearer

"Sometimes our minds are so beset with problems, and there are so many things clamoring for attention at once that we just cannot think clearly and see clearly. At the temple the dust of distraction seems to settle out, the fog and the haze seem to lift, and we can ‘see’ things that we were not able to see before and find a way through our troubles that we had not previously known." - President Boyd K. Packer, President of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles

"If You Could Hie To Kolob" song

This song is for all those who have passed on to the other side

May you rest in peace

An Easter I Will Never Forget! Mendota, CA.

Easter Sunday April 12, 1998
My sisters boyfriend had broken my ribs for bringing a date to the house some time earlier, could have even been the day before. I remember my family was having an Easter party at my brothers house in Fresno, his neighbor across the street gave me somas for the pain & I went back to work on the streets.
This young latino picked me up on Belmont asking me if I was ok, I didnt feel like working so I rode with him. He told me he was selling meth & asked if I wanted to buy some, he also had a Raiders jacket in the back seat but I cant remember if he was trying to sell that to me too. He wasn't persistant selling to me, he knew I was injured & needed help so he was always askin me if I needed anything.
We drove to Mendota to a lil green house next door to a white house and across the street from a corn field. When we got inside he put his sawed off shot gun under the kitchen sink and was a nervous wreck saying his wife or girlfriends brother was on his way over and I began to get scared but I was to drugged up on Somas to do anything. I was in a lot of pain, the boy showed me a bed to lay in, the room was empty but had a red stuffed Fresno Bull dog hanging from the ceiling in the corner of the room. I lay there by myself.
I heard some fighting & arguing in the front room, I looked at the windows wondering how I was going to get out w/out them hearing me. I opened the door and walked in the front room, my new friend was laying on the ground & the huge mexican was kickin him with his cowboy boots. When he looked at me the beatings got worse like machismo or somethin. He was kickin him so hard in the head! The skinny white guy was standin there watching. I ran between the couch & the white guy and out the door to the neighbors, I knocked & knocked crying for help, no one answered. There was a man on a green tractor across the street in the corn field, I jumped up & down but he didnt see me. I watched the blue car with the mexicans in it drive away so I came off the neighbors porch to see what happened. The boy came outside, his head was huge & bleeding every where. He said, "are you ok?" he was worried about me but I was so scared for him that I ran down the street to the liquor store to call 911. I knew my friend was badly hurt. The police picked me up, took me to the green house, the ambulance was there & on the stretcher was the boy with a white blanket over his whole body & head. The cop said "its not what it looks like" the other cop said "this is strange, I wonder why we're not taking pictures?" I dont remember much just that a subpoena came for me at my brothers house and my mom put me on the trucks and said "these are people you don't want to be messing with," I went back to Utah.
Im writing this story because I cant forget & sometimes I have nightmares that the huge mexican is coming to get me. I also want to find this boy so I can visit him at the cemetery & I also want to know more about him. After the boy got hurt or after he died, there was a curly haired brown boy that came out from behind the house like he had been hiding cause he looked scared.

I called the Fresno County DAs office (559.600.3141), my name was not in the system and without a case number or the name of the boy, it will be impossible for them to find out anything or for me to understand & know what happened this day. I googled all the liquor& corner stores in Mendota on the satelyte to see if the neighborhoods looked familiar or if I could find that lil green house but no luck. The liquor store in Mendota was ran by poonjabis.

Someone Once Asked Me...

Hauula, Hawaii 4th Ward

My old ward in Hauula, Hawaii. I took a pic of this world wide satelyte broadcast of "The Work of Salvation" (lds.org) that was held at the church today. I loved Bishop Unga & all of Hauula 4th ward. I became very close to them during the time of the Japan earthquake in 2011 when we all had to evacuate to higher ground because of a tsunami, it was a very scary time for me. Everyone packed their things and said goodbye to their pets & homes thinking it would be the last time to see any of it. The tsunami caused very little damage to Oahu, Hawaii thank goodness but we did have sirens sounding off for a whole week after. Many of the members of our ward were from Japan and had family there that were missing, it was heart breaking to hear their Testimonys at church. 

video of the Japan Earthquake & Tsunami on March 11, 2011

The earthquake was a magnitude of 9 at 2:46pm, the tsunami was 133 ft high. I took the life of 1000's.

the sirens sounding off in Hawaii

When We Want To Speak To God...

A Day @ the Park w/Ky :)

Spent the day at the park with my grandson yesterday, I love him soo much!!

Story of Eli Pierce

I stayed up til 3am, watching youtube videos on Jerusalem, wanting to understand more about the place where Jesus walked. I wanted to find Cleon W. Skousens video on Prophecy Visit Israel but couldn't, I think you can buy it from Living Scripture Co.
This morning I opened up my facebook on the net and this was the first post I read by Ryan Hawks, I loved it so much that I had to post it in my blog...

I couldn't copy and paste the story off of Ryans post so I found it in Jeffrey R. Hollands talk "For Times of Trouble" BYU Devotional March 18, 1980...

As you know, the Brethren used to announce in general conference the names of those who had been called on missions. Not only was this the way friends and neighbors learned of the call, more often than not it was the way the missionary learned of it as well. One such prospect was Eli H. Pierce. A railroad man by trade, he had not been very faithful in Church meetings—“even had my inclinations led in that direction, which I frankly confess they did not,” he admitted. His mind had been given totally to what he demurely calls “temporalities.” He said he had never read more than a few pages of scripture in his life and that he had spoken to only one public gathering (an effort which he says was no credit to himself or those who heard him). He used the vernacular of the railroad and the barroom with a finesse born of long practice. He bought cigars wholesale—a thousand at a time—and he regularly lost his paycheck playing pool. Then this classic understatement: “Nature never endowed me with a superabundance of religious sentiment; my spirituality was not high and probably even a little below average.”
Well, the Lord knew what Eli Pierce was, and he knew something else. He knew what I’m pleading for today. He knew what Eli Pierce could become. When the call came that October 5 in 1875, Eli wasn’t even in the Tabernacle. He was out working on one of the railroad lines. A fellow employee, once recovered from the shock of it all, ran out to telegraph the startling news. Brother Pierce writes, “At the very moment this intelligence was being flashed over the wires, I was sitting lazily thrown back in an office rocking chair, my feet on the desk, reading a novel and simultaneously sucking on an old Dutch pipe just to vary the monotony of cigar smoking.” (For my friends in the English Department I would just hasten to add that the novel reading was probably a more serious transgression than the pipe smoking.)
He goes on. “As soon as I had been informed of what had taken place, I threw the novel in the waste basket, the pipe in a corner [and have never touched either to this hour]. I sent in my resignation . . . to take effect at once, in order that I might have time for study and preparation. I then started into town to buy [scripture].”
Then these stirring words:
Remarkable as it may seem, and has since appeared to me, a thought of disregarding the call, or of refusing to comply with the requirement, never once entered my mind. The only question I asked—and I asked it a thousand times—was: “How can I accomplish this mission? How can I, who am so shamefully ignorant and untaught in doctrine, do honor to God and justice to the souls of men, and merit the trust reposed in me by the Priesthood?”
With such genuine humility fostering resolution rather than defeating it, Eli Pierce fulfilled a remarkable mission. His journal could appropriately close on a completely renovated life with this one line: “Throughout our entire mission we were greatly blessed.” But I add one experience to make the point.
During his missionary service, Brother Pierce was called in to administer to the infant child of a branch president whom he knew and loved. Unfortunately, the wife of the branch president had become embittered and now seriously objected to any religious activity within the home, including a blessing for this dying child. With the mother refusing to leave the bedside and the child too ill to move, this humble branch president with his missionary friend retired to a small upper room in the house to pray for the baby’s life. The mother, suspecting just such an act, sent one of the older children to observe and report back.
There in that secluded chamber the two knelt and prayed fervently until, in Brother Pierce’s own words, “we felt that the child would live and knew that our prayers had been heard.” Arising from their knees, they turned slowly only to see the young girl standing in the partially open doorway gazing intently into the room. She seemed, however, quite oblivious to the movements of the two men. She stood entranced for some seconds, her eyes immovable. Then she said, “Papa, who was that . . . man in there?”
Her father said, “That is Brother Pierce. You know him.”
“No,” she said, matter-of-factly, “I mean the other man.”
“There was no other, darling, except Brother Pierce and myself. We were praying for baby.”
“Oh, there was another man,” the child insisted, “for I saw him standing [above] you and Brother Pierce and he was dressed [all] in white.”
Now if God in his heavens will do that for a repentant old cigar-smoking, inactive, swearing pool player, don’t you think he’ll do it for you? He will if your resolve is as deep and permanent as Eli Pierce’s. In this Church we ask for faith, not infallibility. (SeeBiography and Family Record of Lorenzo Snow, pp. 407–13.)

Mark Chapter 12 & 13

went to Bible Study @ St. Francis tonight... 
read from Mark 12- The widow who sacrificed to put money in the treasury, she gave everything she had which is more than all the wealthiest men. 
Mark 13-Signs of the last days, false Prophets & Jesus told of how the Temple shall be thrown down because there was a better way to Christ...
Gave me a lot to think about...
If some of my family sees this post, don't freak out! I'm not saying the Mormon Church isn't true & Im not trying to get into a debate as to why I want to study with both religions...

"Lots Wife" Jeffrey R. Holland, never long for the past, look towards the future...

My Family Pics

my brother David, wife Nora, nephews Cabot, Levi & baby Meyer

my sister Erin & family- nephew Nathaniel, niece Lydia & brother in law Jake

my brother Garry & his wife Robyn

my nieces Brianna, Shaunte', my sister Michele & my niece Mikala

my sister Carrie & her family- Easton, Danica, baby Cedar & husband Tiger

my niece Miranda & her baby Marlee

my daughter Ashley

my niece Cortney

my brother Jason with my nieces & nephew- Brianna, Shaunte', Destiny & Daryen

my sister Jenn, her husband Rob & my nephew Strider

my step dad AJ & step mom Cindy

my nephew Bryson

my sister Michele

my daughter Lindsay

my nephew Strider & brother Jason

my nephew Garry Jr.

my nephew Brandyn

my brother Adam & my sister Jenny

my step sister Rachel & husband Ryan (missing nieces & nephews in pic)

my daughter Brittany & her boyfriend Sam

my grandson Kyden

my step sister Michelle, husband Josh, nieces McKensie, Brittany, nephews Isaac

nephew Sammy

step sister Katie & husband Tyler (missing nephew in pic)

my step sister Sarah & husband Scott, nephews Alek & Jackson & niece Gracie

step sister Kristy & husband Adam (Aspen, Zac, Skyler & baby Hailey)

step brother Brandon & wife Shannon (missing niece & nephew in pic)

step sister Tami & husband Brian